So, can someone please tell me where the time has gone?
As I look around my house I see piles and stacks of stuff. Sheets, towels, pictures, bookbags, mirrors, lamps, all of the "stuff" that is ESSENTIAL in making a dorm room a home. As usual for us, it is x2! When you have twins, you grow accustomed to multiplying everything times 2. Preparing for college is no different. We buy twice as much of everything and we say goodbye to twice as many.
I know they are ready. It is time. I have wondered for the last 12 months if I have prepared them properly. I wondered if I had taught them everything they need to know. The answer, I have discovered, is "No.". The worry of what will happen to them when they are gone has been replaced with the knowledge and peace that I have done all that I could, the best way I knew how and now it is their turn. It is their turn to get out there and see what's what. There are just some things they will have to learn on their own, in their own time. From the time they were born (and before) I have prayed wisdom for them. I will trust in those prayers and, more specifically in the One who answers those prayers.
People ask me all of the time, "How are you going to manage letting them go?". Well, I suppose I will manage it like you manage a disappearing rope, gradually slipping through your fingers. I'll hold on just enough to know it's there for as long as I can and when it is gone, I'll be thankful for the time the Lord entrusted to me the task of holding tight and hope against all hope that I fulfilled my purpose.
All the while I'm feeling this rope slipping away, I am looking towards new days. I look forward to the visits, the phone calls, watching them grow into who they will be and all of the fun we are yet to have together.
Just another season...
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